Welcome to 2021. What a year we’ve been through wasn’t it? through ups and downs, went through so many episodes emotionally, professionally and many more. For those of you who never get tired to throwing memes “let’s cancel 2020”, what a childish and insensitive you are.
“Ooh Razzaq, relax it’s just a joke”, or “I’m just taking 2020 in a lightest way”, blablabla. I never find those 2020 complaining pandemic memes funny. ever. Think about those who fought or still fight the pandemic from Health Workers to people who works in grocery stores, making sure you’re fully fed everyday who ironically under-appreciated and undervalued while some of us staying at home, using our privilege and complained when is this gonna end, can’t wait to meet your friends at a bar, at a club or any other adult recreations that makes you feeling entitled, it’s your right to have that luxury. I just can’t imagine how selfish we are.
I’m truly grateful went through 2020 with full of stories, meanings, decisions, heartbreaks and fully optimism. I learned from the this Covid-19 pandemic, if you’re not cooperative, thinking all this pandemic nonsense is conspiracy and refuse to wearing a mask, keeping a distance and wash your hands (are you fucking tired hearing this? me too!) you are just an ignorant individual.
I learned that quitting from your job is a big decision and it’s worth to try once in your lifetime!. It’s scary and makes you sick just to think about it. With or without pandemic, I still want to quit. It’s my way to express my feeling personally and professionally. I’m felt unhappy at the workplace that I’ve been working for three years, I don’t get what I want and yes you don’t always get what you want but to be selfish for yourself is also part of taking care of yourself. “But, but but Razzaq happiness is coming from inside, it’s an inside job”. Stop it, just don’t. I never giving you advice, life lesson or whatever progressive non-sense sugarcoating lines. Unless, I asked your advice.
I was being honest with myself and that feeling radiated towards my former colleagues who after few weeks/months I left my job, they expressed the same feeling and wanted to leave the company, but afraid couldn’t get a job quickly or some, getting feeling comfortable and there is no better company than that one. Oopss?! I can’t believe what I heard back then.
I learned if you are honest with yourself, you will drawn to the like-minded people and people respect you more. Ofcourse there are a lot of ways gain respect, I just didn’t expect to be this way. I improved my German in three months after left the company than three years living here because I had to deal with Government Working Agency (Bundesagentur für Arbeit) who obviously prefer to speak German than English even though they are able to, also they’re bound by the law for that.
The agency called me, asked me what really happened and what was my motivation to quit. I told her everything and mainly expressed how I was unhappy at the workplace and the city itself not really helping. I lived in Bayreuth with population is around 80 thousand people, that’s even smaller than the population of one house complex in Jakarta.
The lady who I talked with sensing that I’m not happy and this feeling affecting my work performance and she suggested me to ask a doctor’s recommendation letter that I quit my job so I’m entitled to receive the unemployment benefit without waiting for two or three months. I was shocked and cannot believe what she told me to do, not even expecting that this country and the government who work with employment validated my emotional feelings which kinda hard to measure. Not in a hundred years, Indonesian government will consider this policy for their labours/workers, well fingers crossed!
(Fuck, writing is tired) I will just go to conclusion. So, back to the meme canceling 2020. I can’t stop that type of joke to appear again in the future but at least think about the jokes or funny things before expressing out publicly. I can’t stressed you enough that we’re need help from each other more than ever. Wether it’s a text, random gift, walk in the park or whatever that make sure your loved one can keep their sanity. Udah ah capek anjing
Cheers!
